Last night was excellent and then kind of terrible. Being a medical student means that you and your SO will scrutinize and look up every single problem (or perceived problem) and assume the outlandish.
After an intimate night with R I woke up at 6 - refreshed and driven. This morning I meandered through some difficult concepts, revised my herbal medicine notes, and did some questions on brainstem lesions. I am so grateful that I can localize most strokes with basic symptoms.
One week from today I will have finished my basic science training. I was thinking that today when I kissed R on the forehead as we watched the sunset together. She has delightfully forced me out of the ruts of studying that I sometimes fall into. I was drilling the same 10 drugs over and over going nowhere when she said she was upset - I told her to jog out to the cliff and meet me. It was delightful.
Then I met up with my friend B for dinner. We revisited the memories of first term and chatted about the group dynamics and how we grew to interact with each other. Now I'm ready to settle in for an early night.
Tomorrow I will attend my last small group, take my last BSFCR quiz, and do my last clinical correlate session in Patrick Adams hall.
It was ironic to have an awards ceremony so bare there last night. White Coat was to the brim with medical students eager to embark on the journey. About 50 were in the hall (we started at 800) and the other 550 in my remaining class left to study for "the most important test of our lives".
Those words don't really mean anything - all tests have been that important.
If I failed at any moment during my training I would have left. July 14th doesn't come with any real mystery. The real test is finding joy in every day and maintaining excellence in mind, body, and spirit. I am driven, healthy, and unbroken.
Bring on the pharm!
Thursday, May 7, 2015
Friday, May 1, 2015
May Day
It's sunny outside. The birds are singing and the woman is sleeping in after an entertaining movie kept us up a bit later than usual. It was a luxury - and the sensationalism of the experience was incredible.
There have been many incredible moments in the past two weeks. Free group salsa lessons on campus, re-learning the brainstem, finishing the OSCE, watching flowers with a beautiful and fun person, and long/deep meditations.
I got the money back from that excellent trip in Turkey and briefly presented what the discussions were about.
My date is set and I feel focused, driven toward the goal. Things get rocky here and there.
Recently I had trouble viewing my health records but now they're available. I need to visit the doctor to get a TB test, history and physical.
I lost weight (and found some of it again). Crossfit is a fun cardio workout and it makes it easy to burn some calories and make some friends.
Two days ago I had a great day with R - we played catch with a medicine ball and exercised on the machines. I was having a low-focus day and it picked me up to just talk to her and try to alleviate whatever anxiety she was having about Sunday.
It's so lovely to have someone who speaks Spanish to practice with. Moreover, she's an upbeat person who keeps me in check when my pessimism or bizarre thinking interferes with me being happy. At the same time, I'm better adapted to handling large amounts of conflict, so I can support her when she is feeling overwhelmed.
It is May - which means that it's mindfulness month. I would like to journal every single day to build a good habit. I've heard that 60 days is the minimum time required to form a habit - so now is a great time to start.
A good morning kiss after brushing my teeth and washing my face is an excellent, mindful first activity. I think I will go do that now.
There have been many incredible moments in the past two weeks. Free group salsa lessons on campus, re-learning the brainstem, finishing the OSCE, watching flowers with a beautiful and fun person, and long/deep meditations.
I got the money back from that excellent trip in Turkey and briefly presented what the discussions were about.
My date is set and I feel focused, driven toward the goal. Things get rocky here and there.
Recently I had trouble viewing my health records but now they're available. I need to visit the doctor to get a TB test, history and physical.
I lost weight (and found some of it again). Crossfit is a fun cardio workout and it makes it easy to burn some calories and make some friends.
Two days ago I had a great day with R - we played catch with a medicine ball and exercised on the machines. I was having a low-focus day and it picked me up to just talk to her and try to alleviate whatever anxiety she was having about Sunday.
It's so lovely to have someone who speaks Spanish to practice with. Moreover, she's an upbeat person who keeps me in check when my pessimism or bizarre thinking interferes with me being happy. At the same time, I'm better adapted to handling large amounts of conflict, so I can support her when she is feeling overwhelmed.
It is May - which means that it's mindfulness month. I would like to journal every single day to build a good habit. I've heard that 60 days is the minimum time required to form a habit - so now is a great time to start.
A good morning kiss after brushing my teeth and washing my face is an excellent, mindful first activity. I think I will go do that now.
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